An interesting comment was made to me today. At the moment I have hives and I mentioned it on a Facebook post. This person asked me why I would share this when my work is about promoting health & wellbeing. Aren’t I supposed to be the perfect example of bouncing health and happiness at all times? How have I become ill if I’m always mindful of creating a healthy body, mind and soul? What have I done wrong to become ill? What have I failed to do or what have I failed to notice in my own life to become ill? Doesn’t this mean that I don’t practice what I teach?
Well, I have news for you which may be shocking for some of you to hear and rather difficult to accept … I’m human! Yes, I’m a human being. I’m a beautiful complex human being just as you are.
Now I can’t be totally sure what’s caused these hives (which I’ve never had before) but on a physical level it’s likely to be an allergic reaction. It could be an allergic reaction to some cheese I had at Christmas (I only eat cheese once a year as a Christmas treat) or it could be something else entirely. It’s difficult to tell with these things. But as you may know, I’m a holistic practitioner and so it’s not just about the physical, it’s about the mental, emotional and spiritual levels too. So putting the physical level aside for a moment and focusing on the spiritual … I’m going through a metamorphosis.
I spent 2015 going through a massive restructure of my business. And as my business reflects my personal beliefs, my lifestyle, in fact the whole way I approach and live my life, this massive restructure has also meant a deconstruction, examination and reconstruction of ME. Therefore my CrapFree Goddess brand is me. In order to create a CrapFree Goddess brand I had to do a lot of inner work and reflection – who am I? How do others perceive me? How do I want to be perceived by others? What are my beliefs? Are those beliefs still relevant to me? How do I want to grow? On and on these questions flowed, curiously leading me down the proverbial rabbit hole.
It has been a tough and intensive ride. I may well talk more of this another time. But to stay on the topic of my metamorphosis, I’m now at the resting stage. It’s time to reflect on my journey to this point. More importantly, it’s time to let go of any old beliefs, old dreams and old aspects of myself that no longer serve me. I did the mental & emotional letting go during the deconstruction phase. These hives are a physical manifestation of the remnants. My body is throwing off the old. I’m shedding my skin! I wonder if it’s as painful for the snake as it is for me?!
These hives are also helping me to explore ways of treating this condition naturally because I’m all about the natural approach as much as possible. This can be challenging when you’re in pain because pharmaceutical drugs enticingly promise you immediate relief from your symptoms. Don’t get me wrong, some pharmaceutical drugs and medical interventions are absolutely necessary and life saving at times. The skill is knowing when to use them and when you’re better off without.
Time and time again, I find that that I have clients who are suffering from the same challenges I’ve faced in my life too. This enables me to have a deeper sense of empathy and connection with them as I have an understanding of what it’s like to be there. Now I’m building even more tools and resources to add to my bag of experience.
So, nature has taken me into a resting phase, and as much as I’m ‘itching’ to get back to work, to launch my new business, I will take this time to rest and let go. I want to be renewed and refreshed and not carrying any unnecessary baggage with me into my new phase when I fly free and show you my beautiful new colours.